Don't say the F word

A long time ago, I met a guy who said the Christian "F" word is fine. He meant it as in when someone asks you at church, "How are you?" and you respond "I'm fine" even when you aren't really fine. For me, the F word is Future. What to do with it. What it will look like. I haven't really been looking, but I am getting offers for corporate jobs, however, I don't think I can go back. I didn't go to college so I can waste away in a cubicle. I need to be challenged, and I spent some time with God today, asking Him to show me what direction to go in so that I can actually live out the gifts I have. I don't expect perfection, but I need to believe in His promises and not settle for a lifetime of pointlessness.