Seasonal Affective Disorder

My mom thinks I have seasonal affective disorder and I am beginning to agree with her. I get in grumpy and depressed moods in the winter months, especially when I am home all day on Saturday or Sunday and if it is raining, like it has been here for the last 10 days, it's even worse. I feel like a plant, because I need sunshine to thrive. I rarely have these episodes in the summer, and it generally occurs only in January and February. I get abnormally depressed, which is not like me and I can't seem to get myself out of it. I also get a lagging anxiety feeling, like I hate my life and nothing will ever be good again. Which I know is not at all rationally true, but I will just fixate on two or three bad things and obsess over them. What helped me get out of it this weekend was simply watching TV, since it mostly could take my focus off of it and then finally, going to sleep actually helped a lot. The next day I was able to function better. There was a brighter sky, although it was still raining, and I perked up somewhat.

Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day! I just want to spread a little love and cheer this time of year, so I thought I would go pink with my blog. I support Breast Cancer Research, and if you follow this link, you can too.

I had the most magical and perfect Valentine's Day ever this year! It was fabulous and romantic, but not pressured at all, just fun and good food with KFH! I feel like no day in the future will ever measure up to this day. Ah, well at least I can still bask in the glow of the night.

Trust Me

Why can't I trust the Lord? I know He is trustworthy, I know He will take care of me and yet I insist on stealing back control. It is tantamount to screaming in the face of the Creator of the universe, who is even my own Creator. And this results in a feeling of such defeat for my soul, because I do not want to be this way, yet there is something built into me that will not let me let go. I am physically unable to release my cares. And this is the thorn in my side.

Death and Taxes

I did my taxes last night in between watching the E! True Hollywood Story of Oprah Winfrey and a new episode of The Apprentice. And let me tell you...the Federal Government has been holding onto a lot of my money! I am going to get over $500 bucks back that they've been holding onto for me. Geez! I could've put that in my 401(k) if they hadn't been keepin' it. Ah, well. It's as sure as death and taxes is a good cliche and at least I get something back rather than paying more in. My adjusted gross income puts me in the lowest tax bracket possible that's still above the poverty line, and apparently this is a benefit for tax purposes. And my state return was also fun. In addition to another good chunk of my money back, I got a $60 renter's credit from good old Arnold. Way to go California! Dumping Davis was the best thing we ever did.

Yup, I'm feeling pretty good about the IRS these days.

the Workweek Blues

Hello to my two faithful blog readers. It is Friday once again, which is quickly becoming my favorite day of the week. And tonight you are invited to "Free Yourself from the Workweek Blues" This is a special event organized by me, for all who need a good dose of libations and relaxations after a long, hard week.

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Cheers!