Well, school is starting tomorrow and I have to recover from my driving adventure today. Holidays are not often relaxing anymore. I am grateful though, for having family to go be with. Many people don't, and even more people don't have nice grandmas and aunts and uncles to give them presents and be cheery and everything. So, ya, it was fun. I got some new clothes, (yes, for Easter) and some chocolate and I'm ready for another quarter. And life is cruisin along. I'm pretty excited for school to start, which is good. I just hope my theory class isn't incredibly boring. Other than that, I think I will make a fine go of it. And though it seems far away, this year wil be gone and some good friends will graduate and then I'll be off to who knows where. And after next year, things will be even more scary because I'll have to decide what to do with myself. But I'm hopeful and Easter was floral and pretty and nice this year. And the Lord is risen! I'm delighted about that and I'm more than averagely happy about my life. Well, Martha Stewart does so many good things, so here's my one good thing: I have nice new notebooks to write in tomorrow in class! Lates.

Hi Everyone. Well, it's Thursday. Bible verse of the day is Isaiah 28:10 and the following passage. The gist of it is how the laws of God free us and give us good relationships, good opportunities and a home in eternity. I'm also reading Genesis 24-25. What do y'all think about the bombings in Israel? I was watching the news last night and thinking about how I've always wanted to visit the Middle East, and if this stuff keeps happening, I'll never get there. It seems like there's so much violence in the worlds, and it's so easy to ignore it when we are so far removed from it. I think I will probably not leave this life without getting significantly closer to it. I don't know how that will happen, but it seems likely considering the way the world is globalizing itself and we can travel so easily. Anyway, I'm still processing this and I've got to do some homework. I'll be back with more. Adios.

Ok, so I have to have a little vignette about high school, because everything today is just too coincidentally focused on high school. I saw this guy who I was friends with in high school and it was very strange, because you know, it takes you back and I started thinking all about how we change, and in high school I was such a different person (BLONDE!) and yet so much the same me was there too. And I was thinking about all the people I used to care about so much, my "cool" group of friends and how important their opinions were to me. I think I have finally reached that place where all the hurt is gone and now I just feel okay and maybe a little nostalgic about it. And then I read some other people's blogs about high school, and it made me realize what a pivotal time it was. I also realize how all the things that I thought were so important back then, like which college to choose, aren't really as important as they seemed. I think I wish sometimes I could go back and do some things over, not out of regret, I mean seriously just to relive it for kicks! I had such a fun and dramatic life. Anyways, so I guess cloudy days do this to me. So no more trips down memory lane for awhile. On the last note, I was thinking about how none of my friends in high school were Christian and our lives really are a blip in eternity and maybe none of them will go to heaven. I don't really know what to do with that thought, but there it is.

Transitioning to other thoughts I've been having: I was thinking today about how when you're a new Christian everyone likes and adopts you into their realms of friends, because their proud to have you around and show other people that they're "growing" by bringing people to Christ, be that by church membership, by "praying the prayer", or by any other way of growing the group. And I was pondering how when you're that person, everyone loves you. And it's so hard for those people who are the adopted and loved, to understand why the other people might feel burned or just want to get away from all the cooing. I think I can speak on this topic because I have been on both sides, and I think finally, I am learning to accept both people's perspectives for what they are, and not feel compelled to change anyone's pattern. Everyone has to be where they are, and they can't be anywhere else, even if you really want them to. Don't get me wrong, I am still very guilty of wanting people to change, even myself, and I think that is necessary for growth, but it has to be where that person can grow and it has to be in an acceptable time.

Enough soliloquy for now...

Well, the Bachelor was funny. I know that's probably a strange word for it, but it was. 25 women all go into a party in formal dresses to compete for one guy. Boy, is that an ego trip for him, or what? And how sexist is that anyway? I think there should be 25 men vying for one woman. Do we really need any more conceited men? Not that women are perfect, there's no gender war here, but I think in light of historical male domination, we should start with it the other way around. Anyways, I had mixed feelings about the whole premise, but it was still interesting to watch and somewhat funny.

I have a friend and it's very weird, because I can visibly tell that this friend used to be allowed access to the inner sanctum of my heart, but I have firmly and possibly permanently shut the door to my heart with Friend X on the outside. And it's funny because this all occurred because of broken trust, but we made up and now Friend X thinks everything is fine. And I just find it all strange, because I and everyone else has done this shutting out thing before, but I don't think I ever really knew I was doing it, or was conscious of when it happened. I just woke up one day and realized they were on the outside and I was on the inside and the two would never meet again. So, I wonder what will happen next with Friend X. Will X come knocking and try to open the door again? Will a new friendship grow outside the door? Will Friend X drift away? I know I sound detached, but I really see it as something of a research project. I just wonder how it will all play out and what the major mitigating factors will be. I'll definitely keep you posted. And you keep me posted if you ever feel you heart door shutting. If it happens without your knowledge, you should definitely ask why. I think when my heart door shut without my say so it was when I was too young to know it was happening. Also, could've been I was too out-of-tune with what was happening inside me because of the clamor of life. More heart-renching stories later. Adios for now.

Hello, Friends. I am now fully engaged in doing NOTHING as a tribute to the wonder of Spring Break. I've successfully sat around, on my butt, all day. So, therefore, I have very little news for you. Except, I think I did pretty well on finals as far as I can tell. So far, the count is two A's, one P, and I'm still waiting to hear on one more. Other than that, I have a very relaxing week lined up, where I plan to read a lot and watch some TV and such. I'm especially excited to see the show, The Bachelor, premiere tonight. It's kind of like a dating show, where this guy narrows it down each week to a female winner who will get a proposal from him. I'm interested how they will do it. Anyway, it's on tonight at 9pm if you're interested. Now I will continue to clean my room and do some more vegging. I'll probably be back tonight or tomorrow with more and definitely with a review of the Bachelor. Lates.

Aha! AHA! AHHHAAA!! I finally figured out how to add a link. I know, it took forever, but I am SLOW. Anyways, click HERE to send me email!!! WOOHOO!!! You all better get crackin and email me!!! HaHa! Let's do it again! Click HERE to send me a note!!!

So, if I had to pick a flavor that's super good and possibly the best overall, I think I'd have to pick yogurt pretzels. Do you know what this is? It's a pretzel covered in a yogurt-like creamy substance that is very fattening and sweet. But yet, it's also salty. The perfect combination. I have to say it's probably the most satisfying thing you can buy from a vending machine. And, of course, it's extra good while you're procrastinating for studying for a final which is in two hours. Alas, it is growing late, and I must get back to the grindstone. Miss me.

Please be patient as I am still trying to figure out how to get my email address up in a link. And while you're being patient EMAIL ME.
Kisses!

So, I'm walking over to this lonely computer lab and out of nowhere a girl calls my name and says,"Hey, you used to be in my class." And I honestly don't remember where I have seen her before, but she knows me from a lab I was in last quarter and she says the whole lab wonders where I went when I dropped out of the class. This I find very interesting because I think it just seemed to me that it only really affected me when I left school last quarter. Well, I guess it affected my mom too 'cause all of a sudden I was there in her house all the time. But it never really dawned on me how it affected even a random girl in my lab. And this whole experience goes to show that everything we do has an affect on someone else, even if we're wrapped up in ourselves and blind to it. I guess I didn't realize it at the time, but I was really wrapped up in myself and it occurs to me now that that isn't always a bad thing. If I hadn't taken that time to be selfish and get my life together, I might still be failing and strung out over the edge. I'm so glad I took some time to reestablish my own boundaries. Well, I just thought I'd share...smooches till next time...

Well, since yesterday this song has been stuck in my head, which isn't all a bad thing, cause it's quite a good song, but I gotta get it out so I can study for my last final. Boy, was that a runon sentence! Hi! How are y'all? I'm back with a vengeance because yesterday, the mad day from finals hell, is over. I actually had a headache FROM my life yesterday. Usually, I get headaches from too much noise or certain people (you know who you are) but yesterday I just had a massive one from life. I had this maniacal paper due on Tuesday at 4pm and a final starting at 4pm also and as soon as I went to get into my car to go to school, it wouldn't start cause the battery terminal cable adapter thingy was all loose and wouldn't tighten onto the battery. Anyways, so I had to call Triple A and all that jazz which always takes too long. Well, not really, but it always feels like it takes too long. And the guy's like, are you in a hurry or something? And it wasn't even close to funny, but I tried to laugh for his sake, cause he was pretty nice. And so I finally got to school and my day then took a swift upswing! I finished my paper in record time and studied for my final and then I even did some extra credit too. Boy, do I rock or what? :) But I still suffered the rest of the night with my headache and now there's this song that I've been promising you, so here it is:

I can only imagine what it will be like/ When I walk by your side/ I can only imagine what my eyes will see/ When your face is before me/ I can only imagine/ Surrounded by your glory/ What will my heart feel?/ Will I dance for you Jesus/ Or in awe of you be still?/ Will I stand in your presence/ Or to my knees fall?/ Will I sing hallelujah/ Will I be able to speak at all?

The written word doesn't really do the song justice, but anyways, there you go...

Don't forget to email me. I'm putting this here cause I have NO IDEA how to get a link put on this page. Adios.

I need some magic right now
I need a fairy godmother to come and finish this paper so I can sleep
I never want to see another boring chart again and
The worst part is, I picked the topic myself
So I can’t blame anyone else for my dismay
I wonder if I’ll remember this night when I’m graduating
The two events seem so unrelated
Yet they are so related because there is no other way to get to one without the other
I guess I could technically fail this class and still pass
But I don’t want to
So I’m sucking it up and writing this lame paper on voting trends
I wonder if I could get on any better if I had a brain
I think maybe that’s the point
The point is,
You go through this so they can be sure that you’re a person who likes to eat dirt
Then they know that you are worthy
To pass
And wear the spiffy little hat and bathrobe ensemble
Blah, I guess I'll get back to work now...

I promise to be back tomorrow!

Happy St. Patrick's Day! Wear green or I'm coming after you!!

Ok, so today I'm coming back to this page, to speak some more stuff out into space. Because I got inspired by some other weblogs and decided to bless you all with my life in print. So, here goes... tonight I volunteered at this benefit for a home for abused kids and I'm all about supporting good causes and getting a free dinner, but I have to say that I wish people would be a little more kind when you're volunteering. Cause I go there and wear a fancy dress and then they have basically nothing for us to do, and when we try to help, this lady says, "Go away, we have all the people we need." Now, I shouldn't judge based on this one lady, but this was in addition to many other prissy women who just bossed us around, and didn't give us anything to do. Then, we go sit down and the innocent waiters start serving us the "deluxe meal" and another volunteer tattles on us. All in all, I'm glad I took my mug and got out. Now I have to go shower off all the stress and makeup associated with such an evening. Laters.